The past few months have been the most difficult I have ever had in business. Part of me has been questioning why I do what I do and put so much stress on to myself and my family and whether I could have an easier life. Southern Energy has been part of my life for the past 6/7 years now, I live it, breathe it and drive myself crazy with it. But I have decided I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I won’t bore anyone with the details but sometimes everything just gets on top of you and I don’t think this is a bad thing to admit. I have always been someone who laughs things off and gets on with it, I have realised lately that this isn’t really me and I am not being honest with myself if I keep on pretending and bottling everything up. This blog is a good way for me to vent my frustations but also celebrate any success we have which over the years I really haven’t done enough of. When I think back to working for myself as a 19 year old not really knowing where I was heading with it, running the business from a desk in the corner of my lounge. I would never have pictured running a half a million pound business and having 8 members of staff 6 years down the line, it seems crazy to look back now.
The next few months are vitally important for myself and for the business. I am changing the way I think about a lot of things including my personal development and I know this will have a positive impact on the business, not only for myself but also for staff members. Putting this on here has been difficult, In my head it feels like I seem weak and I shouldn’t admit to finding things difficult as this isn’t something I have done in the past, but I know that is naive of me, It’s 2018 FFS!! I’m not sure whether anyone will read this but it has made me feel like a weight has been lifted already. If you do read this I would love to hear what you do for your personal development and your experiences with this.